November Update

It’s been a minute since I’ve updated.  We’re well into fall term, almost at Thanksgiving Break (which I get a week!)

Chinese is going FAR better than expected (<brag>I got a perfect score on the last test!</brag>)

Jazz History, Intro to Landforms, and Critical Thinking are going as expected.

However, there’s a problem in my fifth class.

The class is Political Science 4255: Politics and Political Economy of East Asia.

The first problem is, I find political economy to be the most boring subfield of political science.

Second problem is, there’s a term paper.  The rough draft of which was due on Wednesday. The rough draft has no page limit, however, it’d be best of it is complete as possible.  The final draft is supposed to be 7-10 pages.

As of Wednesday, I had a quarter of a page.  I didn’t bother turning it in, telling myself I would turn it in the next day.

It is now Friday night and I still have a quarter of a page.  I’m docked 15 points every day it’s late. After running the numbers, I can still pull off an A- in the class (which counts as an A for HOPE and for transferring to UGA) if I turn it in by Saturday and get at least 90s on the final exam and the final draft of the paper (25% and 30% of my final grade respectively).

The topic of my paper is the 1996 Taiwanese Presidential election (first democratic presidential election in the Island’s history!), specifically on how the Taiwan Straits Crisis affected the electoral outcome, if at all.

You’d thinking I’d be working on this paper right now, but for some reason, I have no motivation at all to do it.  I can hardly think about working on it, let alone doing it.

I’m honestly not sure why not.

Truth be told, all I want to do is stay in bed and stare at the ceiling.  I haven’t exercised in close to two weeks, I can barely get myself to do work for any of my classes (even Chinese), and I’m afraid I’m starting to relapse.  Pretty shitty time for it to happen as well.

Did I mention I’m transferring to UGA?  Well, as long as I don’t fail a class this term, I start at UGA in January as a Chinese Language and LIterature major.

There are some other issues going on in my life right now, but they’re pretty much business as usual, you know, loneliness/not belonging, feelings of inadequacy due to my college history and choice of major, etc etc.

I realize that earlier I said I was gonna write on certain topics.  No more promises of that sort, I’m probably not gonna keep them, and I feel far too bad about them.  Posts will come when they come.

南無阿彌陀佛